Who am I?

Ok, so we had a former PCV in today to mess with our minds. Actually it was very enlightening but a hard day. He posed 3 questions for us to answer...

Who am I? What do I do? What is my work?

After pondering for not long enough, I answer:
1) I am a confused dreamer who hasn´t woken up yet.
2) I participate in patterns either voluntarily or involuntarily.
3) I seek personal satisfaction through compliments from the less fortunate.

Number 1 was the hardest. I mean, when is the last time you´ve asked yourself, who the hell am I? First, I thought of all the things I like about me, then I thought of all the things I don´t like. After that, I couldn´t really think cuz I kept tossing around my bad attributes. Then he had us list values we think are important. I didn´t really write values, but instead wrote what I feel is important to share with somebody. I wrote:

friendship, silence, eye contact, adreneline, pain, happiness

I think to make a good friend, the two of you either have to experience an extreme high or low together. Then he had us write our skills. Man, this was hard. I honestly don´t think I´m good at anything, just one of those guys that bounce off of people, knock others down, and eventually I´m still standing. So my skills include:

not reading people correctly, quitting things, gaining weight, making excuses, complaining, and wishing for things without doing anything

This session was a hard look in the mirror. I realized that I´m scared. I am downright scared and there is nothing I can do about it except smile and try to maintain my patience and composure. But I´ll tell you one thing, once you admit your scared, things start looking a whole lot better.